Wings

I didn't know i had them,

But now it's too late.

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If i had wings, 

I wouldn't know how to use them.

Just like love,

I also didn't know how to use it.

I assumed it would happen one day,

It was just a matter of time.

I didn't know how,

I also didn't know when.

When it happened,

I also didn't know.

It didn't hurt,

I didn't see anything.

I didn't know a lot of things,

But i was young.

I will always be young now,

Clueless of what who i would've become if i had more time.

I didn't want this,

But some people don't get that luxury.

I loved a lot of people,

I see that they now, loved me too.

It's small down here,

But it isn't lonely.

It's not cold,

But I lost the pleasure of feeling.

I used to think goodbyes were overrated,

and used too often.

Saying 'i love you' was used too often,

sometimes without effort.

Time seemed infinite,

but wasn't appreciated.

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If I had wings,

I would teach myself how to fly.

Through a glass door,

i was looking at the world around me,

but was denied access to explore.

The ground was deep,

The top was too far from reach.

I knew this was it,

I had a hard time accepting that.

Thoughts slipping away,

Seven minutes to say goodbye.

Goodbyes are gifts,

Used too often.

'I Love You',

Worth a life time but isn't used enough.

Life was short,

But it was my life time long.

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I have wings,

But they've been broken.

My goodbyes aren't heard,

My 'I Love You',

was saved for a moment that i will never have.

It's not how i imagined,

It's not cold nor dark.

Having faces i knew, 

Giving their tears.

A Last goodbye,

Tissues of final words.

I just wanted to be by their side,

But now i'm underneath.

I didn't ask for now,

But time was a gift.

I didn't expect this,

but no one ever does.

A pleasure it was,

a lifetime to share.

What a shame it is,

That i didn't have a life to spare.

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Death,

Cruel but natural.

Known,

But never something you expect to happen to you.

Moments i had,

Moments i wish i cherished.

Goodbyes i'll only have one of them,

Eyes open but now closed.

I'm not sad,

but i feel robbed.

I wasn't ready,

But it was my time.

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Wings i never thought i had,

I didn't know how to use.

Wings i was given,

but i never saw them.

Wings i should've used,

but was never taught how.

Wings that i need,

But have been taken from me.